My Election Post.

I have been a little hesitant about writing this post just because I feel as though a lot of the emotion I have and others have are still very raw, but I am currently alone in my dorm and I think I have a lot to say about it.

When I started following this election a year and a half ago I truly never thought that this would have been the outcome. I never thought it would be possible for someone who has such radically different views from what I thought Americans held sacred to win. However, I was very wrong, and to think that the majority of America (even though technically not really since Hillary won the popular vote) holds these beliefs scare me. I am “lucky” enough to be a white woman, born in the United States. So while some of my rights feel as though they are hanging in the balance, there are others who are in much fearful situations than myself. To say that I do not understand how something like this is possible would be wrong. I understand that Trump was able to win the white working class male vote, and I believe the only reason he won this was because he has never said or made derogatory and offensive claims about everyday white men. He has never said anything to make them feel as scared, threatened, or less than what they are truly worth.

On one hand, I feel bad and sorry for Hillary. I  will admit I cried after it sunk it. I wasn’t able to stay up to see the live results, but I could that she was losing, and I honestly did not think it would be possible for her to lose. I woke up at 5 AM to see the results and I laid in bed for 3 hours until it was time to get ready for my first class. I laid in bed with my stomach turning and my mind racing with thousands of possibilities. None of them being very good. I am very doubtful that he will be able to represent ALL of the people in our Nation. To be frank, my heart hurt and broke, when she said “I’m sorry that we did not win this election.” Even if I watch it now  I can feel the tears, because it does not seem more real to me than when I am watching her concession speech.

I have had multiple discussions in my classes, one of them ending with two guys making fun of us Democrats because we were “just mad” that we lost, and that hurt. Many people are asking “why are you taking this so personal” and to you just have to give an elevator pitch and hope that they understand that this is personal. This all goes back to the beliefs that people apparently hold in our country, and it is difficult to look at someone who voted for Trump and not jump to the conclusion that they are racist, sexist, and a bigot. When I think of the males in my life that voted for him it makes me wonder if they believe that I am less than them because I am a woman, because the person they chose to represent them, does.

On the other hand, the Bernie or Bust supporter in me says this is democracy. In my personal experience when Hillary won the primaries that is what I was told. We were all told that this is how the system work. For me, it felt as though people and media were saying too bad this is how it is, so deal with it. The primaries turned to be a learning lesson for me, so these emotions that I am feeling now I have felt before.

I will say that my candidate lost about 6 months ago.

It is now known that the primaries were never made for Bernie to win. Hillary had the DNC wrapped around her finger, because they believed that someone who held such radical views could not be elected.

So this part of me wants to say to the Hillary supporters, how does it feel to be wronged by the system, and I do not mean to come across as sarcastic or ignorant. It’s just how does it feel?

I want to say that it is just Karma at work, and does not hold Trump’s beliefs to be true.

I genuinely believe that if this was an election between Donald Trump and Bernie Sanders, Bernie would have won.

So with this said, yes I do feel angry, upset, and shocked that our President-Elect is Trump, and I wish my sincerest condolences to everyone right now. From what I have seen we all need it.

I want to say something about the aftermath of the election in my area. I am from a smaller city, but a nonetheless; which means that my home county did go blue. The county I attend college in; however, went straight red. There has already been instances of racism, that people as though it justified because the President-Elect has justified for the past year and a half. Which is another element that adds fear to the current situation. Much of Trump’s campaign was built of division;whereas, Hillary’s was built on unison, and be “Stronger Together.” I hope, which is one of the few things a lot of us can do, is that those who so strongly stood with her hold this slogan to be true. I hope many of us (roughly the 60 million who voted for her) can stand together strong.

I saw online one silver lining, which was from Seth Meyers, and that is that someone out here has a daughter that will have the opportunity to be the First Female President of the United States. Someone who will potentially have the ability to win because people feel as though they are voting for change rather than voting against regression.

With all of this said, I think credit is due to all of the candidates that were so involved in getting people involved, especially people like me. I am 18 years old and people who are more than twice my age do not care or are not as involved as I was through this election cycle. I have talked about everyday, there was always something new, sometimes good, most of the times not so good. But this election was able to do something not many other have, which is to get “teenagers” involved. I say this as a good thing, although I hope people can stop talking for just like two minutes, because it has been non-stop and draining.

There are only a couple of things left to say.

  1. Thank you, Hillary Clinton for enduring nothing less than what I would call abuse for the past year and a half. You have worked tirelessly for decades and although I was not always with you, I am proud to have voted for you. I do believe that we will be on the right side of history for a long time to come. Although it pains me to say it I do agree with Trump in that we owe you a debt of gratitude, whether or not he was sincere I can assure that I am.
  2. I have added a picture of a safety-pin to this post. The safety pin has come to represent a stand of solidarity, and demonstrates that people do not believe in Trump’s beliefs. It is reminiscent of the aftermath of the Brexit vote, which is something that reminds me very much of this election.20161111_235649

I want to say thank you to all of those who have read this. I would also like to encourage positive conversation and hope that my blog is a safe space for such.

Thank you all,



Blog #38, Day 45.

Sunday October 9th, 2016 at 9:04 PM.

Big surprise, I once again did not leave my dorm. I must admit that this is getting a little ridiculous to have to say. I am also  watching/listening to the debate as I am writing this. So it’ll probably take awhile to finish it since I will be going back and forth between the two.

So remember when I said that I thought nothing would happen last night? Nothing life changing happened, but something kind of rude and a little gross. I am not really sure if I should write this, because I have not told anyone but maybe it will be funny once I look back on it. Realistically it will probably still make me angry.

So here it goes. The reason I am not sure about writing this is because it is personal, but not personal for me. Last night my roommate texted me at 11:30 PM that her boyfriend has come up and surprised her for the night. To which I responded not a problem, which it kind of turned out to be. She ended up coming back with him at around midnight, and they were actually really quiet coming in. I was not asleep yet though so I just acted like I was. She ended up turning on her lamp, which ended up being on til 2:00 AM, was just one of the things that I found to be annoying. They eventually started to make out, which sounds disgusting, and honestly what do you need the light on for when doing that. I eventually fell asleep, but I woke up and fell asleep multiple times last night. I woke up at 2:00 AM and 3:00 AM to him snoring. Then at 5:00 AM to them having sex. Which is where it switches from annoying to rude. I just find it so disrespectful to have sex when someone is less than six feet away. Like why?? Why do that to me, I do not need to know that you are having sex. Plus, he drove his car up here, they definitely could have done it in there. Then I woke up at 7:00 AM since he slammed our door, twice. Then I fell asleep til about 10:00 AM, and he was gone and she was getting ready to leave. Anyway, I was/am really annoyed about it. Also just by the way I did not listen. I put my earbuds in and blasted my music as loud as I could.

It is now 9:33 PM.

On the debate: Trump is a joke. All he wants to talk about are the emails. Anderson Cooper is not having it though, he has basically yelled at him to not interrupt Hillary and has not really let him go over on his time. Go Anderson!! (He is also making sure that she is not going over her time.)Trump is literally just standing there, he does not even try to make it look like he is listening to her. Trump has claimed that it is three against one, always the victim.

I really think Anderson Cooper is doing a good job. He is not afraid to tell them to answer the question that he is asking. He also just says “thank you” when their time is up. I am a little bias though since I have always like Anderson Cooper.

It is now 9:40 PM.

I cannot decide if I want to end this here or after the debate, but I am leaning to ending it here since the debate will not be over til at least 10:30 PM. It pretty much depends on if something crazy is said.

It is now 10:09 PM.

Trump has just said that he disagrees with his running mate, and does not support his stance. I mostly came back to write that both moderators are keeping these two in check, and are by the best moderators so far. Hillary did finally cave and interrupt him so she could correct him with some actual facts. I also really pee but I still have at least another twenty minutes before that is a possibility, but I could probably get it on my phone. I will have to figure that out in a hot minute. Trump is getting upset that she is not being stopped when she goes over and says that he is stopped immediately. I really just can’t with him, he is genuinely in his own world.

It is now 10:48 PM.

I am actually done writing now.

My high of the day-not doing any homework. My low of the day-being woken up throughout the night.



Blog #25, Day 32.

Monday September 26th, 2016 at 10:31 PM.

I am currently still listening to the Presidential Debate. I have been watching since 9:00 PM. It was not really as “explosive” as I thought it would be. There were a few low blows here and there, but other than that there was not anything to crazy.

This is my first election that I will be voting in, and unfortunately neither of the options would have been my first pick. Back in the spring if you would have asked me who I was going to vote for come November it would have Bernie. Bernie Sanders that is, in case you did not know.

I have to say that Hillary looked bored throughout all of the debate. I thought she did alright, I think she handled everything with ease, but what else would you expect from her. She is pretty well versed in this whole politics thing. As the debate is finishing up Trump is telling viewers that he had something very mean to say, but decided that he will not-highly doubt that he had anything to say. Neither of them answered the questions though, there really was not a lot of substance in the answers. Trump seemed pretty hung up on these commercials and ads. He keeps saying that she spends all this money on commercials, and that he did not have to spend the money. I am just wondering whether or not he knows that SuperPacs are the ones who spend the money on the commercials. Overall, I think that she did pretty well, but like I said it just seemed like it was not anything difficult for her. But what do I know I am just an 18 year old.

I know some people are weird about politics, but I personally do not have a problem talking about. I am a registered Democrat and will be voting for Hillary in November.

Anyway I will move on.

Today my English class was cancelled due to the fact that my professor wanted a quiet day. He also cancelled class for tomorrow too, which is pretty awesome to be honest.

Today was a overall a pretty good day. I did not have that much homework, mostly just calculus. I think I have also just given up on computer science and have accepted that I am going to fail.

I also just realized that I will only have two classes tomorrow.

Now I am just watching the panel analysis of the debate on CNN.

It is now 10:50 PM.

My high of the day- getting emails that English was cancelled today, and another one later in the evening that it is cancelled again tomorrow. I also saw and pet a really cute corgi. My low of the day- sitting in computer science and not doing anything at all, because I just do not understand it at all.