I have been a little hesitant about writing this post just because I feel as though a lot of the emotion I have and others have are still very raw, but I am currently alone in my dorm and I think I have a lot to say about it.
When I started following this election a year and a half ago I truly never thought that this would have been the outcome. I never thought it would be possible for someone who has such radically different views from what I thought Americans held sacred to win. However, I was very wrong, and to think that the majority of America (even though technically not really since Hillary won the popular vote) holds these beliefs scare me. I am “lucky” enough to be a white woman, born in the United States. So while some of my rights feel as though they are hanging in the balance, there are others who are in much fearful situations than myself. To say that I do not understand how something like this is possible would be wrong. I understand that Trump was able to win the white working class male vote, and I believe the only reason he won this was because he has never said or made derogatory and offensive claims about everyday white men. He has never said anything to make them feel as scared, threatened, or less than what they are truly worth.
On one hand, I feel bad and sorry for Hillary. I will admit I cried after it sunk it. I wasn’t able to stay up to see the live results, but I could that she was losing, and I honestly did not think it would be possible for her to lose. I woke up at 5 AM to see the results and I laid in bed for 3 hours until it was time to get ready for my first class. I laid in bed with my stomach turning and my mind racing with thousands of possibilities. None of them being very good. I am very doubtful that he will be able to represent ALL of the people in our Nation. To be frank, my heart hurt and broke, when she said “I’m sorry that we did not win this election.” Even if I watch it now I can feel the tears, because it does not seem more real to me than when I am watching her concession speech.
I have had multiple discussions in my classes, one of them ending with two guys making fun of us Democrats because we were “just mad” that we lost, and that hurt. Many people are asking “why are you taking this so personal” and to you just have to give an elevator pitch and hope that they understand that this is personal. This all goes back to the beliefs that people apparently hold in our country, and it is difficult to look at someone who voted for Trump and not jump to the conclusion that they are racist, sexist, and a bigot. When I think of the males in my life that voted for him it makes me wonder if they believe that I am less than them because I am a woman, because the person they chose to represent them, does.
On the other hand, the Bernie or Bust supporter in me says this is democracy. In my personal experience when Hillary won the primaries that is what I was told. We were all told that this is how the system work. For me, it felt as though people and media were saying too bad this is how it is, so deal with it. The primaries turned to be a learning lesson for me, so these emotions that I am feeling now I have felt before.
I will say that my candidate lost about 6 months ago.
It is now known that the primaries were never made for Bernie to win. Hillary had the DNC wrapped around her finger, because they believed that someone who held such radical views could not be elected.
So this part of me wants to say to the Hillary supporters, how does it feel to be wronged by the system, and I do not mean to come across as sarcastic or ignorant. It’s just how does it feel?
I want to say that it is just Karma at work, and does not hold Trump’s beliefs to be true.
I genuinely believe that if this was an election between Donald Trump and Bernie Sanders, Bernie would have won.
So with this said, yes I do feel angry, upset, and shocked that our President-Elect is Trump, and I wish my sincerest condolences to everyone right now. From what I have seen we all need it.
I want to say something about the aftermath of the election in my area. I am from a smaller city, but a nonetheless; which means that my home county did go blue. The county I attend college in; however, went straight red. There has already been instances of racism, that people as though it justified because the President-Elect has justified for the past year and a half. Which is another element that adds fear to the current situation. Much of Trump’s campaign was built of division;whereas, Hillary’s was built on unison, and be “Stronger Together.” I hope, which is one of the few things a lot of us can do, is that those who so strongly stood with her hold this slogan to be true. I hope many of us (roughly the 60 million who voted for her) can stand together strong.
I saw online one silver lining, which was from Seth Meyers, and that is that someone out here has a daughter that will have the opportunity to be the First Female President of the United States. Someone who will potentially have the ability to win because people feel as though they are voting for change rather than voting against regression.
With all of this said, I think credit is due to all of the candidates that were so involved in getting people involved, especially people like me. I am 18 years old and people who are more than twice my age do not care or are not as involved as I was through this election cycle. I have talked about everyday, there was always something new, sometimes good, most of the times not so good. But this election was able to do something not many other have, which is to get “teenagers” involved. I say this as a good thing, although I hope people can stop talking for just like two minutes, because it has been non-stop and draining.
There are only a couple of things left to say.
- Thank you, Hillary Clinton for enduring nothing less than what I would call abuse for the past year and a half. You have worked tirelessly for decades and although I was not always with you, I am proud to have voted for you. I do believe that we will be on the right side of history for a long time to come. Although it pains me to say it I do agree with Trump in that we owe you a debt of gratitude, whether or not he was sincere I can assure that I am.
- I have added a picture of a safety-pin to this post. The safety pin has come to represent a stand of solidarity, and demonstrates that people do not believe in Trump’s beliefs. It is reminiscent of the aftermath of the Brexit vote, which is something that reminds me very much of this election.
I want to say thank you to all of those who have read this. I would also like to encourage positive conversation and hope that my blog is a safe space for such.
Thank you all,